Yesterday I had a pretty hard day. I felt like satan was working over time on me. Actually, every since I felt like God wanted me to start Seeds of Hope and Praise. It has been one thing after another. Yesterday it hit the high point. I wanted to quit. I was done. It felt like nothing was happening.
After a talk with my husband last night, he helped me put it in some perspective.
1. apparently something is happening or satan wouldn't be fighting so so hard to stop me.
2. I am doing this for God not other people. Of course I am doing this to try to encourage people but that shouldn't be what determines my success. Thank God, that the productivity of my work for the Lord is not dependent on who sees the things I post. Its just that I trust him and continue this, like he told me to do.
3. turns out that when you step out and try to do something for the Lord. The people you think are going to be behind you aren't. But praise God he will send others! It will be a surprise, your feelings will be hurt, you will think you have done something wrong. But you didn't God just doesn't work in preconceived ideas.
After this conversation I felt a little more renewed. He really didn't tell me anything I didn't already know, but I was letting feelings not logic control me. Feelings- nobody likes me
Logic- God does, your doing what God said to do, and that's all that matters.
Then last night we had to take a late trip to get gas in my car and get something at the grocery store. When I walked out of the door, I was shocked. It was the most beautiful sky I had ever seen. I quickly ran inside and grabbed my camera. I took a couple of shots and we were on our way. The longer we drove the more I marveled at the beautiful sky. What a creator we have!! Then as were almost at the gas station, the icing on top of the cake arrived. Pink clouds. Oh I was so happy. After such a horrible day, I was thrilled. It was literally like God said. "let me show off for you. I love you and I love that your obeying me." (I am making myself cry right now)
As soon as I got home I uploaded them. I knew that was what God wanted me to post last night.
Thank you so much for visiting Seeds of Hope and Praise! I hope you leave with more hope than you came with :)
Jessica, keep doing what you are doing. Just because you see no psychical evidence of your actions doesn't mean nothing is happening. I think you are doing a wonderful job and I know God is pleased. You are helping him send his message of love and truth. I know I am proud of what you are doing. You have a gift, so keep giving. : )
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Tina!! I keep thinking I need to just have faith but it has been hard. Ugh just trying to take it 1 day at time and try to just trust God
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